My Daily Dose Of Fukitol

For years I felt with undiagnosed depression and anxiety. How I wish I could travel back in time and tell my younger, foolish self to ask for help. I didn’t know how much better I could feel until I finally took Hal’s advice and sought out a therapist.

I’ve been seeing a therapist for approximately eight months now. I finally realized that the next step in my healing journey was to move on from my first therapist after I felt she was no longer seeing me as a person, but as an account and a revenue stream. Next week I hope to find a new therapist who will help me deal with my personal quirks and demons.

I have made progress, but I am just now starting to realize how far I can actuallay go if I keep going to therapy. My mind doesn’t race from one self-induced crisis to another like it used to. I feel much more in control of myself and my emotions. I still find meaningless things to worry about, but I’m getting better.

My mind is open to new possibilities that I didn’t want to recognize before, like reiki and crystals, and stones. I started meditating more than three years ago when I was in the hospital. My respiratory therapist turned me on to the idea, and I stuck with it. The crystals thing came about after discussions with Hal and some of my online acquaintances. I was adventurous enough to try it, and I do feel like I am tapping into some energy that I didn't know existed.

Overall, I feel so much better about myself. I know that there are actually very few things that are truly life and death. We just elevate small problems and turn them into big ones out of habit.

This sounds corny, but im writing this story with my chakra stone in my hand. There are times when I can’t think of anything to say, but now I feel like I can write all night. I won’t do that, of course, because I want to get a good night's sleep tonight. Tomorrow Hal and I visit the Chiropractor and then we might have lunch somewhere. Tomorrow feels like there are endless possibilities and opportunities to explore, and I am excited to see what's in store for us.

Be kind to one another ☮️