Admitting My Mistake

Recently, I wrote a story about the current political climate in this country. I wish I hadn't because it is too easy to fall back into my old habits and begin writing critical stories instead of positive ones. I don't want to be the person I used to be. I spent the better three years working out of that negative mindset.
I was a victim of and a participant in the Industrial Hate Machine that consumes so many of our lives. I withdrew from the regular cycle of manufactured crises and finally started to discover inner peace. I seldom watch the news anymore. In fact, I barely watch tv at all, and I feel happier than I have in years. Even sports lost its appeal for me because the new objective seems to be money. College sports no longer even pretend to be immune from that motive. I can not find any more enthusiasm for sports anymore.
I sound like a depressed person, but that is not the case. I merely see the harm my old obsessive behavior caused me, and I never want to return to that lifestyle. It took me so long to find Happiness, and I never want to lose this feeling again. When I feel myself starting to backside, like when I wrote that story the other day, well, to be honest, it hurts me because I feel the pull of the negative emotions that still lurk below the surface.
I have done so much better recently. The anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medications have helped me. I have not gotten angry or lost my temper in nearly two months, which conforms to the time I have seen my therapist. I wish I started seeing a therapist years ago.
Kindness is a part of everything that I do each day. I learned several important lessons on my journey, but most importantly, to be truthfully Kind to others, you must be Kind to yourself first. Once you learn that, everything gets easier. I don't get angry anymore, and the desire to make a smart-ass comment on everything is gone.
I find myself reassuring silence more and more as time goes by. I prefer music or radio to the tv when it comes to distractions. I can not deal with the constant mindless gibberish from the tv. My mind is clear and calm without the unpleasant distraction. Even as I write this, I have my headphones on and listen to music while Hal watches tv. Unless there is a movie that we both like, we don't watch anything together anymore.
Once again, I sound unhappy, but that is not the case. I just learned to be Kind to myself and let others do their own thing. Preaching or arguing do no good to anyone. They cause unhappiness and discord when there is no need. When I focus on myself first, everything is more manageable, and I feel better about myself and everyone else.